One of my followers wrote this to me on DM. And I sat there like a little girl and smiled. For 10 minutes. Only 5 words and I felt like I have a reason why I am doing this... Again.
DOWN.DOWN. U P
Lately I feel like I am falling. Selling dresses isn't as good as I hoped, it takes a lot of energy away from me, so I don't have money to put in a new collection and I am feeling like it isn't worth it. Plus I often get negative messages thrown on my way. Sometimes I really
think- FUCK THIS SHIT.
I really do. Every time I make a new dress I think to myself- it will be the last one. And then BOOM I am standing in front of my dressmakers and giving instructions about a new dress...
And then again I have this feeling- WHAT THE FUCK I AM DOING
But I can't stop..
I artificially keep SVALBON alive. Talking to myself on Instagram.. Putting pictures that no one cares about.. except me. Throwing money away that I don't really have. Thinking all night why I am doing this, feeling bad cause I don't know how to stop. Throwing away my time and energy. And for me, time and energy are the most expensive things in the world... I am rending my skin off to figure out how to revive this dream again. My brain never stops to think about it. And it's killing me. WHY I CAN'T JUST LET IT DIE IN PEACE? Cause peace isn't for me...
Cause I fucking love what I am doing.
KICK MY ASS
And then suddenly like a commercial on Youtube in the middle of the song She, Beautiful Creature, sends me a heart-warming message. 5 words. ''Thank you for being inspiration''. And all my negative feelings disappear. It was like a kick to my ass. What are you whining about??
How often do you say: THANK YOU. You are beautiful. You are doing a great job.
I appreciate it. ?
If you have something nice to say- SAY IT!
So many things can drag us down.
But the only one thing that can put us up again.
Say something nice to somebody. Maybe this will save something beautiful from a slow death in the dark. all alone.
So THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANKS TO THOSE FEW PEOPLE WHO SHARES LOVE WITH ME. I APPRECIATE IT. heart heart heart
P.S. You are really inspiring